“Keep a little fire burning; however small, however hidden.” - The Road, Cormack McCarthy

“Keep a little fire burning; however small, however hidden.” - The Road, Cormack McCarthy

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Eva is a very cute dog and I hope she gets the funding for her surgery because dogs are the best.

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I’ve personally never watched x-files, but I hear it is very good.

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I’ve personally never watched x-files, but I hear it is very good.

Anonymous said: Hi i recently started college and feel like being on my own is making me realize just how distorted my thoughts are. I really enjoy your drawings. I have been struggling with depression, social anxiety, low self esteem, and overall self awareness for a very long time now. Almost half of my life. I have gotten so used to being on the sidelines of others lives instead of creating and being involved in my own life. What were some things you did or continue to do to recover and feel alive again?

I fully support you wanting to do more, but you’re wrong if you think you haven’t done a lot already.You’re not on the sidelines. This is your life. You’re the one who got yourself this far. You may be the one struggling, but you’re also the one who keeps holding on despite the struggle, who decided to reach out for help, who recently started college (congrats by the way!), who is still fighting. If you want to improve your self-esteem, start by focusing on how amazing that is, and celebrate it.

You’ll have to find your own way through recovery though. There’s no “general rule of recovery” that works for everyone. There are many different methods of recovery and finding happiness, and you’ll have to find the best one(s) for you based on who you are and what’s your situation. That said, if you need some inspiration, these are my rules for *my* recovery:

I take my medication. I listen to my doctor’s suggestions because I know he has my best interest in mind.* I take breaks when I need them. I’ve surrounded myself only with people who make me feel happy and loved. I can’t stress enough how much good cutting toxic people out of my life has done me. I don’t do things that are bad for me if I can avoid it. Example: therapy? not for me, so I don’t do it.

Whenever I feel sad, I write lists of things that make me happy. I pay attention to the world: how many colors there are in nature, how much texture there is in the human body, how much music there is in the world, how many scientific advancements we’ve made, how many more advancements we’ll make in the coming years. I force myself to focus on how amazing it all is.

I organize things. I keep a planner with lists of long-term goals and short term goals. I break them down into steps. I make sure that my goals are quantifiable (ex: “exercise 30 minutes every day” instead of “exercise more”) and check them out once I’ve done them. At the start of the month, I list out the big things I have to do that month. Then every day I list out everything that I should do that day if I want to be on track for my goals (+ everything else that I have to do). Again, I check them out as I go. I do one thing at a time, so I don’t get stressed out or overwhelmed by everything I have to do. I tell myself that it doesn’t have to be all or nothing. If I fail at a goal, it doesn’t mean I should just give up that day. Instead, I move on to the next task. I congratulate myself on the tasks I accomplish. I let myself feel proud because hey I DID IT!

When I feel insecurities and self-loathing coming on, I take a step back. I stop thinking in terms of “I am” and starting thinking in terms of “people are”. People deserve forgiveness. People shouldn’t be judged for every little mistake they do. People are allowed to fail. People can change. People don’t need to have everything together at 20, at 30, at 40, at any age. And I’m a person, so all those things apply to me too no matter what my insecurities say. I love people, and so I love myself.

*Some doctors won’t have your best interest in mind. Finding a good doctor can be really hard. If your doctor makes you feel ignored or “crazy”, they aren’t a good doctor.